Now I realised why.....arwah ayahku sedari awal lagi tak membenarkan aku pergi atau belajar jauh dari keluarga, me being the only daughter in my family. And my colleague Aspa who sent off her only daughter to study abroad just recently also told me the same story....."Sedih tau, Has..." she said. Not until my dearest daughter, my one and only girl dapat tawaran masuk SBP...tak jauh pun..hanya di Kuantan, Pahang. About 250 km away ataupun about 2 and a half hours drive dari KD. We sent her for registration at the school yesterday.
Rezeki Anis...dapat tawaran on the 2nd intake...1st intake hari tu she didn't get it...she was quite sad at first...tapi she said "tak apa"......that's my girl...her mind is matured by nature. Memang agak sukar girls dapat tawaran ke SBP nowadays, especially from an urban school, straight A's do not promise you to be selected....only 2 girls got it... out of 17 or 19 who were offered the places in full residential or boarding schools from her Abu Bakar class.
Anyway...memang terasa "kehilangannya" walaupun just a few hours ago, we were still together. Sebabnya...she has always been like my shadow....we were always together...kadangkala without me noticing it..for instance I used to do things in a fast speed, nak beli barang pun pakai redah aje masuk hypermarket, tuju kat rak2 items yang nak ku beli dengan pantas ke sana ke mari, Anis used to be there tailing me from behind.
I treat her like a confidante too, as I can share with her my secrets, my problems, my happiness and sadness...we can really communicate..even I know that at times she's still too young to be sharing "everything"...but there's my Anis...she's always there for me. While typing this, my tears are rolling...but I want her to know if she reads this that I am truly blessed by having her in my life. At times, I wished that she's born being my eldest, due to the fact that she really has the leadership qualities...it's so much easier for her to command her siblings (all males) and look after them when we were no longer around. Tell me how it's like to be the only girl in the family and not being the eldest.....I know how it is.
Don't get me wrong...even though she's so precious to us...yes...we used to "quarrel" at times,...she gets my scoldings too....well...nobody's perfect.
Occasionally, I took her along for my outstation duties....not only travelling by plane, but by car or even bus as well. I started losing my patience when she was so ( I repeat...sooooo) meticulous and took her own sweet time putting rice into her mouth...(....lambat betul dengan penuh sopan menggaul nasi nak suap ke dalam mulut)...on contrary I used to do things on a fast pace. There was a time in 2009, I offered her to come along with me for an official week-long trip to Bali, I could write a letter to her school for permission to be absent, but she refused. She just wouldn't want to break her zero-absent record in school. Oh dear.....finally I only took my other children along with me. That shows how determined a person she is.
My dear girl....I remembered the day I made my late father (arwah Tok Ayah) the happiest person on earth when I delivered you to this world...you were his first grand daughter after having 6 grandsons in a row....the moment he saw you being wheeled to my room at Sheela's Maternity Home hours after the delivery, Tok Ayah said cheerfully...."Ayah tahu anak perempuan ayah yang akan bagi ayah cucu perempuan".....
and.....Anis is also the one who created the Facebook account and Blogspot for her mum. Thank you, dear....
Kakak....as she is fondly called....don't let us down. Mama and ayah let this "temporary separation" a worthwhile hijrah...for you, for your life..and for our family. We know you are such a determined person...go all out, we will support you all the way.
We are indeed truly blessed by having you in our life, and will support you all the way. Strive for the best in life, dear.....
sincerely from Mama, Ayah, Abang, Mai and Adik.
sincerely from Mama, Ayah, Abang, Mai and Adik.
